There was that one day that I took a really hard, long look in the mirror and decided that I had to change things.
I didn’t like the way I looked. I didn’t like the way I acted. I didn’t like that I had lost my quick wit, my sharpness; I simply just felt dull.
At that time I didn’t realize it was my body’s reaction to ‘carb overload’; being lethargic and actually being in denial. As I realized that I had to do something drastic to get my old self back….something I had never done before. It wasn’t going to take a diet, or a program, or a class, or a diet pill….it was going to take renewal, discipline, creativity, and a willingness to never get like this again. Big changes were ahead.
I remember journaling and now as I go back and read the notes I had written, I have to smile. For in the depth of despair, fear and uncertainty, I found peace in knowing I had a lot of control over this issue. God was allowing me to see that. I was assured that He had given me all the tools I needed to live life well. All I had to do was just ‘do it’……with ‘no excuse’.
Experiencing cancer in 1999 was trying enough; but fighting obesity all my life was the scare that I needed to change. Obesity was something that wasn’t necessary and was hindering me from reaching excellence. My excess weight got in the way of my relationships, my career, my health and my service to God. If you’d asked me before this ‘awakening’; I would have told you that God loves heavy people and that I was doing ‘just fine’ thankyouverymuch! That was a lie to myself. Well yes, God does love me fat or skinny…but the lie? I wasn’t ‘just fine’!
The journey is a long story in itself, but the outcome from the goals I set, the promises I made and the truths I lived….well that is the proof that yes, we can re-invent ourselves, we can be successful in changing our lives and we can be fulfilled in a way that is beyond our comprehension when our weight is not in our way.
I learned that people don’t look at you when you are fat. Not really. We are not heard as well, and many times we are not respected or valued as highly as we could be. This is wrong and it shouldn’t be like this….but unfortunately it is pretty much the norm.
Ladies….it isn’t about how you look as much as how you feel, how you perform, how you think about yourself, how you stand tall, how you serve others, how you excel, how you wear your clothes, what you spend, where you eat, how you think, what you believe and where you are going. If you will make the decision today to do something about what you can, and let go of what you can’t change….you will be on the road to success.
I encourage you to find your future with exercise and diet that you CAN LIVE WITH FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE!
If you don’t enjoy it, you won’t do it. Be creative. Be definitive. Be strong. Remember you did not arrive at your current weight overnight, so this won’t be a quick process. But it will be a fantastic process….you will get your mind back; it will be clearer, you will get your wit back, life will be more fun. You will get your body back, clothes will fit better. You will get your hair back, your complexion back, even your face will look different. I’m not kidding. God made our bodies to work perfectly, yet we have abused our bodies for years and whine that they don’t work well, they are falling apart, and breaking down. Well if we would care for our bodies, put the right things in to fuel ourselves, and not abuse our bodies….we’d have a much better chance at living longer, healthier, happier and we’ll get a lot more respect on the way.
So remember: you DO have control. You can change things. No excuse. None.